I honestly do not know what happen. Many possibilities run through my head but one thing for sure is that I fed you and cleaned you… :/ Maybe the temperature from the room or lack of sunlight might of been why. I actually teared up for a while, from the moment when I picked you up and you weren’t responding saddened me. I’m sorry for what happened and I hope it wasn’t a painful death and if it was, I’m truly sorry and will miss you. Every morning and moment when I would walk home from school I would check on you. You were a part of my life even though you where always in your tank trying to escape or sleeping, I enjoyed having you. You will be truly missed… Rest in peace Tom.

So my spring break is going pretty good haven’t worried about much I’ve just been enjoying live… but soon I have to start getting back to work I have a couple of things to do. Anyways last night was pretty great. I got introduced to a new band called Company of Thieves and these guys threw a show. I really enjoyed them and was glad to see them. After that got to see Grouplove and I wasn’t a big fan of them but seeing them live makes me appreciate them more. At the end it was freaking awesome how YTG just came out and started jumping everywhere on the stage! Anywayyyy fun night, I just wish my feet didn’t hurt ;/. Well that’s it for now get to see my gurl tomorrow ^_^

…that means soooo \(^-^)/ much to me.

Sooo this morning was really bad…. woke up thinking it was gonna be a good day, I studied for my math test until 2 am last night and I was very confident. Well lets start from the top. My car barely turned on this morning idk why its being doing failing to turn on, its fine throughout the day besides the morning. So I open my Hood and once again I forget to close it right again. So I’m on the freeway, luckily I see it moving so I stop on a freeway side anywhere I could because I did not want the same shit to happen to me again… Then, (this is where the part comes), I get off my car to close the Hood and OH WAIT! all my doors are locked besides my door, which doesn’t open… With the window only open so little, I would say a little wider than my phone’s width. there i am scared on the side of the freeway with trucks and cars blowing wind straight towards me, I start shaking my window trying to pull it down leaving me no other choice than to shove my hand in there. Tearing my skin apart, I finally reach my handle and open my door. Once I pull out my arm my forearm muscle gets pulled, leaving me extremely hurt. My arm is so messed up right now I can’t even drum. Speaking of drumming, I couldn’t do my midterm today for jazz class cause of this incident…. other than that, i think I passed my math exam…. What a fucken day.

Today’s studying went well. Which means just do HW. I don’t know what goes on in my mind when i’m doing math hw. There’s always something wrong I do no matter how slow I take. :P I have a math test this Wednesday… Don’t know how that’s gonna go but i’m going to spend my time tomorrow studying for it. I’m not expecting the best for this but maybe thinking that way just MIGHT help. Since last time I had my hopes WAY too high and it crushed me, it got to me so bad that when once i saw my score i just crushed my exam sheets… Didn’t feel good. I just wished my math Instructor would collect the hw she assigns. Well, I know one thing for sure, I HATE math… It’s stressing the hell at of me, added with all the other stuff that’s on my back. I’m breaking out pretty nasty, my skin hasn’t gone through this since who knows when. Anyways, i hope this week brings good to my special someone, and shit, to me too. 

I hung out with just one of my friends today and it was pretty chill actually. There was no name calling, throwing random punches or randomly capping on each other. I guess when I’m present with more than one friend the vibe is totally different. We watched some Office, house and the beginning of casa de mi padre. Now I’m just chilling in my room by myself, no
sister for a whole 4 days, well 3 now. Gots feels good being alone now. I use to not like it being alone, ehhh people change right? And it’s not a bad thing I simply just enjoy it now. I kind of like it that I don’t really know people at my school besides former H.S. students that I hardly see but anyway, I feel fine that it’s this way. More focus on my music playing. But I do wish I had more communication time with my music teacher. Well, It is what it is…. until next time.

Today there was a bomb threat at my school during Math class. I found it kinda funny how people were chilling right outside the building that was being “under attacked” and people knew this shit. I guess they knew it was a false alarm since this shit always happens haha. Well after math class, today I didn’t really do work but i spent almost the rest of my day cleaning my room and rearranging a few things around. I’m kinda digging it it looks pretty chill ;) It felt good being productive on a day where i usually get home and do… pretty much nothing. Anyway, today nothing bad really went down besides the fact that my sister started a fight with me… Not cool. I dont understand why she has to scream for everything. ugh. Well that was my day. let’s see what tomorrow has for me………………………………………………

I am officially stressed… Can’t help it but to think about my classes, tickets and my life at home. I failed my first two actual exams… Gotta work harder next time. It only gets harder. Blahhhhhhh, I feel it! Not good at all. I was told by a friend that, i been acting douche’eee these past few weeks, and i realize that it’s true… At least someone told me straight out right? Well, let’s see how far I get with this math homework. 

So I started painting again, not sure what I made but its going on my wall as a sign of getting shit done without thinking about it.

Really can’t wait to go hiking again. It was awesomeeee. One of the best feelings was feeling free and away from everything else. Anyway, this Saturday my gig got cancelled for my band since 2 members can’t make it. Soooo I’m looking forward to visiting a friend at UCLA and later that night party awayyy I believe. Alsooooo, I failed my math test… it sucks how I get really stressed out for exams and I fail. This happens most of the time for math, I should just be use to it… ahhh it’s cool I guess. Math sucks :P